I'm no good at it.

I want to do everything. Make music, make games, play games, sleep, finish work, eat, ride my bike, work out, craft things out of leather, blogging, etc.

I find that I try to do it all, and eventually things get pushed aside for other things, and I just can't do all of them. I end up not doing much of anything, and by the time I get back to something, it's been so long that I find myself out of practice and in need of working just to get back to where I was, which is just discouraging.

I acknowledge this and then play some video games instead. I severely lack self-discipline, and most of the time I just can't be bothered to care.

I don't have a solution to this problem. I'm pretty sure I can't just do everything, even though I'd like to. Maybe if I scheduled hobbies, but that's weird and I hate schedules.

Bleh.

Not been up to much. Played some Terraria 1.1, pretty much explored all the new content in mediumcore. Didn't end up losing my stuff even once. Should've started in hardcore I guess. Hard mode is definitely hard, not gonna lie, but multiplayer definitely made it much easier as well. Hard boss? Take it on with one or two others. Now it's an easy boss.

Also played some DragonNest, a free to play Nexon mmo. Kind of fun, not sure how long it'll last, but I enjoy that combat requires things like aiming, instead of just facing in a general direction, targeting something and then pressing a button to fire a shot that won't miss unless the roll of the die decides it should, even though it appears to have landed. Never was super fond of that. Unfortunate, however, that the game requires microtransactions that are far from micro ($13.50 or so to add 30 slots of inventory to your current 30, up to a max of 150) in order to not be frustrated by a bunch of things. Not that I'm sure I'd subscribe if doing so would lift some of those limitations. Money's not really a thing I've got much of, as usual.

Not to mention Steam sales. Oh how painful it is to see the sales come and go, and not be able to actually take advantage of some of them. I did end up getting Limbo and Chantelise for 2.49 each. Mass Effect 2 was 5 bucks, also. Pretty rad.

Clearly, the thing stopping me from doing all the things I'd like to do is video games, but I like those too! I don't want to just stop playing them. If I weren't an admin on Lost Shard, I'd probably have a bit more time for things, but as it is, I've been slacking quite a bit already.

I feel like I'm in some sort of rut, but it's entirely my fault and I'm not willing to leave said rut. Is it still a rut, then? Hmmmm...

After organizing everything in one convenient spot, I noticed the list of abandoned projects was quite extensive, and gave a few of the items in said list an extra listen or two. It motived my to try to unbandon them. Results below!

I'll save the best for last, meaning the shitty song11 comes first! I did my best to make something of it, and I wasn't really pleased with the outcome:
song11_01.mp3



Oh well, can't win 'em all. Song13, on the other hand, had a lot more potential than I gave it credit for. I think I just abandoned it in favour of song16 because I was going for creepy at the time. It started off like so:
song13_00.mp3



And I managed by some miracle to turn it into:
song13_03.mp3



I'm pretty pleased with the outcome. I'm feeling a bit unsure about the excessive pitch bending and the dog-whistle pitched notes near the end, but it's got a start and a finish, so yay!

As per popular request (Not so much a lot of people requesting, but getting the same request multiple times from one person) I will cram all of my music into one section and plop a link on the menu.

Completed songs

They have a start and a finish. That's all that is required to get here.

"Naive adventurers setting out for the first time" song

• song10_03.mp3
  
  

"Bloop bloop bleep bleep bleep bleep bloop bloop" song (Upgraded from Abandoned! - Upgraded from WIP! What a miracle!)

• song13_03.mp3
  
  

"Running away from a creepy thing" song

• song16_04.mp3
  
  

"The above creepy thing's lair" song

• song17_02.mp3
  
  

Works in progress

I've started it and hit a snag somewhere, or got distracted. Expect this list to grow as I get distracted by more and more things.

"Cute, starting town" song

• song1_04.mp3
  
  

"Battle" song (Bob's song)

• song2_00.mp3
  
  

"Travelling or something" song

• song6.mp3
  
  

"Sad" song (Unbandoned!)

• song14_04.mp3
  
  

"Western-ish" song

• song18_00.mp3
  
  

"Party-ish" song

• song19_00.mp3
  
  

"Conflict-y" song

• song20_00.mp3
  
  

Covers

This section probably won't fill up much, since I'm enjoying making original things.

Lagrange Point - Bubble of Light (Original)

• bubbleoflight.mp3
  
  

Sonic Mayhem - Quad Machine (Original)

• quadmachine_01.mp3
  
  

Abandoned projects

I've pretty much given up on these, and have no intention of reviving them. This list will also probably end up very long. It's only here to give people an idea of my thought process or whatever.

"Contra-ish" song

• song3_00.mp3
  
  

"Space-ish" song

• song4_00.mp3
  
  

"Hero-ish" song

• song5_00.mp3
  
  

"This barely even has a rhythm" song

• song7_00.mp3
  
  

"Who made this?" song (No, seriously, I don't do chords. This can't have been me.)

• song8_00.mp3
  
  

"Familiar for some reason" song

• song9_00.mp3
  
  

"First attempt at eerie" song (Gave it a second chance, still not feelin' it.)

• song11_01.mp3
  
  

"Powerup-ish" song

• song12_00.mp3
  
  

"Happy-ish" song

• song15_00.mp3
  
  

So I didn't get around to posting an update earlier because my website died for over a day (Thanks HostMDS) when I was in the mood to write, and fell out of the mood for a while. During that time, I finished Song10 and started/finished Song16! Though I think I might make some changes to 16 depending on feedback. Listen to 'em after the jump!

*Jump*

Here's Song10! Also known to some as happycutesong.mp3


I'm honestly totally surprised by how well it ended up. I felt a bit like I was just getting lazy when I chose to end it where I did, but the more I listen to it, the more I think it's just right. It isn't too repetitive, it isn't over complex. It's wonderful! My first finished song ever, and it's a good'un.

As for Song16... While the cute songs I make are nice and all, I've been trying to make uncute ones for the sake of diversity. Only downside is that it's hard as hell. Everything I do sounds cute! I couldn't figure out why the hell it was happening. I managed to come up with a gloomy enough background track, (I even managed to make it in 3/4 time, just for the hell of it.) but the melody I was laying over it was dissonant and cheery.

I brought my woes to Arisuki, and she tried to teach me about scales, keys, and other things I glanced at in the past and ran away after feeling overwhelmed. She walked me through some of the basics, and before I knew it I was poking my keyboard and gloomy sounds were coming out! All because I tried using the A-minor scale. I immediately got to work with my newly discovered knowledge, and the tunes were just pouring out of me. It was amazing.

I have Arisuki to thank for being able to show off Song16, which is tentatively known as fastanxioussong.mp3 (Newer than Youtube video below)


I'm not quite as pleased with 16 as I am with 10, but I still think I did alright. 10 was a fluke of astronomical proportions.

Criticism I've received so far:
The end bit sounds a bit mish-mashy.
- There's a bit of a method to my madness in that regard. The feeling I got from this song was that I was being chased by a ghost and had to get the hell out of whatever lair this ghost inhabited. As the song goes on, the ghost gains on you, loses you a little, but near the end it becomes apparent that you're not going to make it, gets all panicky and then you're caught.

Maybe that's not the right way to portray that. Though the imagery gives me a few ideas for a title. I'll decide on that later on.

You get thrown into the song at full speed right away.
- This has been remedied with a quick little startup bit, refer to the mp3 to hear the updated version, as I couldn't be bothered to reupload to Youtube.



Boo!

Edit:

Song16 has been given some constructive criticism with which I was inclined to agree. It's been updated, but the Youtube video remains out of date because let's be serious, it's going to get 20 views like everything else.
song16_04.mp3



Editedit:

Am I on a roll or am I on a roll?
song17_00.mp3



Editeditedit:

The talent just keeps flowing. I'm afraid if I sleep that I'll lose whatever blessing I've stumbled across and be making garbage when I wake up. Might as well enjoy it while it lasts.
song17_02.mp3

So for about 2 weeks now, I've been in Barbados. Got some sun, a minor burn, swam a bit. Mostly I stayed inside and played Minecraft. (This isn't a bad thing. A vacation's about enjoying yourself, right? I certainly spent time doing things I enjoyed, so I'd say mission accomplished.)

Also, I started doing something I haven't done in a while. Not sure if I'll keep at it, but here's a totally useless sneak preview!



Wish I could get over feeling embarrassed every time I do something one would consider creative. I'm experimenting with arpeggios this time around, and hoping I can come up with something longer than the previous things.

Looking back at some of my micro-projects, I don't even remember making some of these. One of them definitely sounds way too good for something I would've created. I really would like to believe that I did this song8 without any assistance, but it just seems too good to be true. I'll look into the matter and fill you in one of these days!

Edit:

Hahahahahahahahahahaha

song5_00.mp3



Don't ask, one of my abandoned micro-projects.

Editedit:

I'm fairly pleased with it so far, so here you go! You get to hear song10 in its alpha state!

song10_00.mp3

"Dress like a pirate, Virus!" "Dress like a pirate, Virus!" "Dress like a pirate, Virus!"

Fine! But I need a hat. I won't be a pirate without a hat. Oh, hats are $30, and yet this second hand leather jacket is only $15. Obvious solution: Make a hat, and the rest of my costume if need be.

So here's my costume! Well, most of it, and evidently unmodified. Total came out to under $30. Missing: Boots, cutlass.


I didn't take any pictures of my tools... Because they're needles, thread and sinew. I considered picking up a seam remover, but remembered that I'm cheap, and have a pair of seam removers already.
(Here would be a photo of me flexing, foreshadowing my brutish method of taking the jacket apart by tearing it at the seams. Alas, I am self conscious and deleted the photo.)

So here is my first victim. A $14.99 leather jacket. I don't feel too guilty about the impending violation of the jacket since it's totally something I would never wear.


First thing's first, I uh... Eviscerated... The jacket made from skin. Yeah... I took out the lining. I also took a sleeve off. Evidently, this isn't a step-by-step documentation so much as "Oh right! I should take a picture!" (Also starring my finger in the corner. Camera died right after the photo was taken, couldn't be bothered to wait for it to charge to take another.)


Some really tiring manliness happens (I do indeed tear the jacket apart at the seams, accidentally ripping the leather in a couple of insignificant spots.) and here we are. I would eventually take a few more pieces off because they're in my way, but no more 'all the leather' photos.)


Minecrafters only have to go this far, they have no idea how fortunate they are.


I really should've had some more tools handy, but I did not. I measured the circumference of my head with a piece of thread. It conveniently came out to pretty much the length of a sleeve.


I placed the circumference thread in a very sloppy ring around the approximate centre of the leather, blew at the middle, and it became a circle! Then, using all the tools at my disposal (Thread, dry-erase marker) I make a circle. I had wrapped some thread around the marker and tried to anchor the side at the centre with my finger. Well, evidently, the circle was way too small, so I tried it again and it came out a bit better. Cut it out with really blunt scissors, and at this point I realized it would be quite a painful job.


I don't know why I took this picture, but enjoy:


Did some more cutting. The larger circle piece was done in the same way as the first one. It came out incredibly lopsided, and would later require some more precise, yet still terribly non-precise measuring and cutting.


Now that the 'easy' stuff is over, I had to turn the walls of the cap into a circle, and not a line. This would be my first time doing any real sewing. (I tried once as a child to turn a damaged blanket into a pillow as a gift for my mother. Didn't have a clue what I was doing, and the thing fell apart. As did I, because I was mortified that my mother's gift was a failure. It's honestly a miracle I ever tried sewing again!) Marvel at my beautiful needle work. If you can tell the difference between mine and the stitching already in the jacket! Aha!


With my ring of leather complete, it's time to add another piece! I went with the top of the cap, because it'd at least give me something to wear and say "It's sort of a hat" before I finished. Also, I sewed it like this so there wouldn't be visible stitches when it's in hat-mode. Not sure if that's normal, but it worked for me.


I sewed all the way around once, and intended to go all the way back because it would make my stitching look like the stitching in the jacket. Since that was all I really had to go with. I did feel the need to at least make sure it fit at this point.


Looks preeeeetty silly, I know. Anyway, I sew back the other way, things tighten up nicely. You can still see light through gaps if you look at the inside, but it stays together, and that's what I was going for.


Sewing the brim on, I seem to have forgotten to take a picture while sewing, but here it is in the same half-done state as the cap picture above. Yes, I am topless, because leatherworking makes me warm!


Sewed back around, attached bits to the cap to make it tricorny, and voila, shoddy craftsmanship at its best!



As much as it may look like it's falling apart, it's quite secure! I couldn't have done it without the coaching I got from Chezlin. Though it's not because of her that it looks as terrible as it does. That is entirely due to my laziness, and lack of experience. I have her to thank for telling me how to keep the stitches from falling out, and what tools were absolutely necessary. So thanks!

Now I must work on my shirt.

Edit: I was very complacent, and taking the compliments I was receiving far too readily. Yes, it was my first attempt at sewing, but there were some very major issues with the hat. Unhemmed brim made the hat look more like just a bunch of shreds of jacket piled on the floor. It now has a bit more shape (Though my hemming could certainly use some work), and with a hem, I was able to feed a coat hanger around the edge of the brim to retain a bit of its form. It was then pinned up like before, but with less of a beak-like point on the front. The photo of the result was taken with my phone due to my camera battery deciding to die on me.



I found that every time I took the hat off and put it on again, the wire frame would do something funky, and as time went on, it would start to defy my commands and obey gravity instead. That made it look like some combination of a cowboy/robinhood hat. Unacceptable. I toiled with it for a while before finding a less-comfortable way to pin the brim to the cap which limits the hat's ability to hug my head, (Feels more like it's just sitting on top, instead of being worn, also falls off much more readily.) but again improved the look by an enormous amount. Doing so also enabled me to have the front raised, taking away from the cowboy/robinhood look, and making it much more distinctly a tricorne. The result is below:


It's still not perfect, the hemming is abysmal, and the comfort thing is a sacrifice I had to make for appearance purposes. This is due, in part, to making the brim too short. Unfortunately I used as much material as I could without sewing more bits and pieces together. I see now that I should've sewn more bits and pieces together. I'm not about to undo the look I finally managed to accomplish, however, and will instead keep this in mind in the event that I try to make another hat one day.

If I do, I think I will use more suitable tools, and probably more suitable leather.

Editedit: I worked on my shirt! Here's a terrible before photo:



I removed all of the buttons, and - in a few strategic spots - gouged holes through where buttons used to be using one of my leatherworking needles. I sewed the bottom half of the shirt to itself, and then fed a 91cm lace (Should've got a longer one, but alas, it was cheap, and came in a pack of 4) through the holes in the top half.

I made a 'bubble' (as a friend described it) in each sleeve to feed another 91cm lace through so that, when the lace was pulled on, the sleeve would look ruffled at a point. Folded in the cuff, ran the lace through some holes, tied it off, and voila! A terrible after photo:


Went to look for boots at the thrift store again, and found nothing, but I did find a (really nice, perfect condition) longcoat for 20 bucks. Wasn't really hoping to spend as much as I have spent now, but the jacket could actually see some use outside of halloween! Searched a dollar store for some other items, found myself a bandana (Also needs staining, like the shirt), though the only cutlass they had was so curved you could mistake it for a sickle. It was also really short and probably meant for a small child.

I headed on over to a local Party Packagers and got myself a much nicer looking sword as well as a flintlock pistol for like 7 bucks total. The costume is coming together nicely, and is looking like this so far:


I tried after taking that photo to stain the bandana and shirt with tea, but used far too much water, and basically very slightly yellowed the shirt and wasted a few teabags. I'll be giving that another shot shortly.

Editeditedit: Staining complete! A bunch of Coffee and a lot less water did the trick.

I don't think I actually blogged about this one - which is odd because it would've made great blog fodder (That is... A topic I throw my blog at and see what sticks.) - but essentially, the day I bought a secondhand bike, I got pulled over. Details below, as well as new thoughts about it.

I was salty, that's for sure. I was let off with a warning, mind you, but I got pulled over for a non-issue. According to a page of MTO's website:


I had all that, and got pulled over because I didn't have a red light on the back of my bike.

You can bet your bottom dollar that I ranted about this to friends and family, but time has passed, and I've taken a few trips that have changed my opinion on the matter.

There's a certain stretch of Yonge street between Aurora and Newmarket that has no lights. It isn't a long stretch (We're talking 0.75km or so) but it is uphill, and it comes about halfway through my trip home. I'm already a bit tired when I hit this point, and it's always long after dark that I'm riding on this road, so I do wobble a little left and right while climbing.

(Below is an artist's rendition of the aforementioned dark stretch of road.)



I've had several cars and buses zip by me as I struggle up the hill. I consider that, in the event that my reflector doesn't make itself incredibly obvious combined with my tendency to wear dark clothing while riding an otherwise dark bicycle, maybe they won't see me on this road. The speed limit is 60km/h, so obviously people are going 70-80 while I'm crawling up the hill at maybe 10-15.

It isn't impossible that, without a rear light, I'd have been taken out by someone who couldn't see me. That said, I change my previous opinion about the officer being naggy, and honestly appreciate the warning I was given.

One of those popular child-raising theories. Pretty simple: "Reward someone for doing something good. Not necessarily every time, just enough to get them to hope they'll get something out of behaving." Combine that with a very optimistic child (Eg: Myself) and you get a very well behaved person who is very hard to surprise with a gift.

For as long as I can remember, I've had some scenario in my mind where I was once asked by my mother to drop what I was doing to help her with something. Upon doing so, I found that she was trying to bait me into a surprise. It worked, and I felt rewarded for helping her, because even though it might not have been planned by her, it was assumed that if I refused to stop doing what was important to me, she might've changed her mind about the surprise.

I don't know if that scenario ever actually happened, because I don't remember any major details, but the scenario is in my head, so I assume it was just something that happened when I was very young.

Anyway, in the 20 or so years to follow, every time I was asked to do something, I would consider the possibility of it being a possible attempt to bait me into a surprise. As my lack of recollection of any actual event of this nature happening or me, I'm pretty sure I always ended up without a surprise. I generally would get a "Thank you", though, which is nice.

I would be lying if I said that this kind of excessive optimism isn't at least partially responsible for the number of nice things that I do. Granted, there aren't usually many scenarios where I'm asked to sacrifice something to help someone else, which would have a small - but not infinitesimal - chance of yielding some sort of reward.

Such a scenario presented itself to me, yesterday. After a very tired day of doing things I can't remember, due to the only thing on my mind for the bulk of the time being sleep, I finally decided to get some sleep. I was woken up some small amount of time after falling asleep, asked to accompany my sister on some errands so she would have someone to look after her kids.

Miserably tired, I was quite reluctant to say yes, but I knew that my mother was busy with work and would be unable to spare the time. It seemed like it would be a really selfish thing to do to say no, especially when it really just meant "Sit in the car with the kids for however long is necessary, try to stay conscious, and hope they don't start screaming for no reason".

My sister runs one errand, in an effort to make what seems like casual conversation, brings up my general lack of excitability, and then stops the car near the bike shop by my house. She says "Surprise! Mom's getting you a bike!" to which I half-consciously respond "Oh no no, not here, this place is way too expensive. We should check out SportChek."

It's not that I expect a gift from every sacrifice I make, but it's certainly burned into my mind that it isn't impossible. It certainly would've been less surprising if I hadn't mentioned that there was a 50% clearance sale on bikes the very same day. Any potential of visible excitement was thrown out the window when it turned out that SportChek and their sister company were both sold out of the bike I was looking at. Buying online was still an option, however.

That bike being:


I guess I'm just bad at being surprised because I like to be prepared for whatever situation is likely to come in the near future.

While I'm not doing a happy dance or smiling more than usual, I will admit that I had trouble sleeping last night because I was anxious about the bike's delivery, which won't occur until this Tuesday at the earliest, and next Tuesday at the latest.

I certainly hope the world doesn't mistakenly take my lack of excitement as a lack of appreciation.

Notice how I just stopped jogging out of the blue? Yeah, I cannot motivate myself. I always quit something after a while just because I run out of interest. Fitocracy makes a game out of it, which is entirely based on the players being honourable and accurate. Still, it's already got me feeling competitive.

I got an invite a few days ago, and knowing my tendency to compete with people, threw a bunch of invites at some friends immediately after. So it began.

I bike around a fair bit, so that was quite helpful in getting me up to level 2. Did some other things (Can't remember what) just to get ahead of the person who invited me, and called it a day. The next day, I did a bunch more, and was waaay ahead of my opposition. What does she do? Goes and completes a quest and goes flying ahead of me.

Naturally, I decided to take the past jogging experience and put it to the test! There's a quest to run a 12-minute mile. Not a huge point bonus, but it was something, and I needed anything I could get.

I ran. Not having to pace myself for 20 minutes, I didn't hold back too much. (I did a bit, because a mile is still a considerable distance compared to sitting on my butt all day.) I just assumed that a certain block near my house would maybe come out to a mile. Turned out to be just under 2km, so that was cool.

I was in an enormous amount of pain by the end of it. Sweating bullets, chest and head were killing me, but I managed to pull off 10:22.

That's an 8:31 mile. It's wonderful not having to pace yourself for a 20 minute jog.

Anyway, that got me a bunch of points (143, which compares to 71.5 push ups, or 286 sit ups) and the 50 points for managing the 12 minute mile, and then some. Turns out there's a quest for 100 points to pull off a 10-minute mile, and one for 200 points to do it in 9 minutes.

There's also an 8-minute one, and maybe even more, but 350 bonus points was more than enough for me.

I did this only because someone got ahead of me. I never would've done it otherwise, I'm sure.

Need I say more?

What would you say if I told you that a french-Canadian ladyboy prostitute playing Minecraft at 3am offered me cash and sexual favours to get a player banned for killing them?

That's what I thought. Enjoy:

02:51:15 - Player: how much can I bribe you to ban someone for me
02:51:27 - Ayunema: Sexual favours are my only price.
02:51:37 - Player: You don't accept USD via paypal?
02:51:44 - Player: I have plenty of that weighing me down
02:51:46 - Ayunema: Nah, only sexual favours.
02:52:00 - Player: Does this admin job pay enough for you to decline bribes?
02:52:09 - Ayunema: It doesn't pay.
02:52:18 - Player: then what are you doing refusing a bribe
02:52:28 - Ayunema: I'm being a good admin, problem?
02:52:45 - Player: you can't all be incorruptible!
02:53:09 - Ayunema: Well, feel free to try another admin then.
02:53:13 - Player: Lucid clearly has a taste for money, with subscriptions and all
02:53:34 - Ayunema: I welcome you to try to bribe Lucid to ban someone.
02:53:57 - Player: Wouldn't you be better off getting it instead? It's not like you see any of the subscription mone
02:54:15 - Ayunema: I clearly don't do this for the money.
02:54:24 - Player: Oh, but you could!
02:54:33 - Ayunema: Social engineering roll: 1
02:55:26 - Player: well if you ever reconsider just name your price, within reason of course
02:55:32 - Ayunema: What's within reason?
02:55:51 - Player: Well, if it's too much money I could just use that sum to buy my own server instead
02:55:54 - Player: be reasonable
02:55:59 - Ayunema: Right, makes sense.
02:56:10 - Ayunema: My price remains the same.
02:56:13 - Ayunema: Sexual favours.
02:56:20 - Player: where do you live?
02:56:28 - Ayunema: Canada!
02:56:33 - Player: Hey me too, ever make your way to Montreal?
02:56:48 - Ayunema: Oh neat. Haven't been to Montreal since I was a kid.
03:01:36 - Ayunema: Out of curiosity, who do you think I would accept a bribe to ban?
03:01:54 - Player: I figure $60 is good, considering no one is ever going to find out, it's low-risk
03:01:57 - Player: for you
03:02:16 - Ayunema: But who?
03:02:24 - Player: Haha, now you're interested?
03:02:29 - Ayunema: No, I'm just curious.
03:02:35 - Ayunema: I can't get sexual favours for 60 bucks
03:02:36 - Player: another word for "interested"
03:02:54 - Player: y'know if you were serious about the sexual favor part that'd be even easier
03:02:58 - Player: my day job is escorting
03:02:59 - Ayunema: Sure, let's pretend I'm interested in a paltry sum of cash.
03:03:06 - Player: Oh paltry is it?!
03:03:12 - Ayunema: It's a pittance.
03:03:23 - Player: Let's be frank you don't have a job
03:03:28 - Ayunema: I don't?
03:03:29 - Player: it's 3am
03:03:34 - Player: you're playing Minecraft
03:03:38 - Ayunema: I work my own hours writing software.
03:03:50 - Ayunema: Family businesses have all the perks
03:04:06 - Player: So you're one of those idle rich admins
03:04:15 - Player: I definitely picked the wrong guy to bribe
03:04:16 - Ayunema: Well, I certainly wouldn't say rich.
03:04:19 - Ayunema: I get by though
03:04:35 - Player: But do you have a taste for ladyboys is the question
03:04:39 - Ayunema: I'm certainly too cheap to buy a new bike, instead of getting a beat up one second hand for 40 b
03:04:42 - Ayunema: bucks*
03:04:50 - Ayunema: Never tried.
03:05:03 - Player: you don't have to try something to know you like it
03:05:31 - Ayunema: I'd say since my experience is only with women that it's something I wouldn't be sure of.
03:05:44 - Player: Ech that's boring isn't it?
03:05:54 - Ayunema: Well, I've been single for like 3 years, THAT'S boring.
03:06:06 - Player: So take a bus to Montreal and I'll suck your dick off
03:06:15 - Player: I'll literally suck it right off your body
03:06:20 - Ayunema: That sounds painful
03:06:24 - Player: yeah sorta
03:06:36 - Ayunema: I've gotta say, you're an amusing player, but you'll never bribe me.
03:07:14 - Ayunema: For better or for worse, I follow a certain moral code very strictly.
03:07:16 - Player: You don't realize how much I charge for escorting
03:07:27 - Player: it's a $300 value
03:07:35 - Ayunema: That's great.
03:07:51 - Ayunema: Except the sexual favours thing was more of a joke that you decided to go along with.
03:08:02 - Player: Hey man just sayin'
03:08:17 - Ayunema: Sex isn't worth 300 bucks
03:08:25 - Player: you're nuts it totally is
03:08:27 - Ayunema: To some people, sure, but I get by without it.
03:08:36 - Player: oh man I can taste the aspergers
03:08:53 - Ayunema: I wish I were a sperg, I might actually finish more of the dungeons I start.
03:09:23 - Player: you should contribute to the "Celibate Hero" article on TV Tropes
03:09:42 - Ayunema: Well I'm not celibate. I am curious about the article though. Sounds amusing.
03:10:02 - Player: it's full of guys who sadly claim they "get by" without sex and don't even miss it
03:10:06 - Player: they are all lying
03:10:14 - Ayunema: Oh, no I definitely miss it, but I would never spend 300 bucks on it.
03:10:51 - Ayunema: I don't avoid sex, I simply have come to terms with the fact that I have to work for it.
03:11:04 - Player: You work for money and then money buys you hot sex
03:11:08 - Player: same thing right
03:11:14 - Ayunema: 300 bucks though? Way too much.
03:11:21 - Player: once again I am very attractive.
03:11:38 - Player: And I offer special services.
03:11:49 - Ayunema: See I'm kind of super lame and whatever. Sex is more about the closeness than anything.
03:12:10 - Ayunema: Dated someone for 1.5 years before she put out. I was cool with it.
03:12:11 - Player: You celibate heroes always say that to defend your lack of sex-having
03:13:09 - Ayunema: Think what you will. When I feel like dolling myself up for a relationship again, it'll happen.
03:13:16 - Ayunema: I will never pay for sex, that's for sure.
03:13:31 - Ayunema: Also, frankly, I think you're lying about the escort thing.
03:13:31 - Player: it's always astounding when I hear this story and I hear it a lot
03:13:41 - Player: sad nerds putting a noble spin on their serial virginity
03:14:07 - Ayunema: Are we even on the bribing topic anymore or are you just defending the occupation you claim to have?
03:14:24 - Ayunema: Because you sound very defensive.
03:14:25 - Player: I don't really need to defend it I'm pretty successful
03:14:37 - Ayunema: That, or you really want to make a sale.
03:14:45 - Player: Despite being well trenched in the nerd world I have great contempt for them
03:15:04 - Ayunema: You're playing Minecraft at 3 in the morning, trying to bribe someone to ban a player who beat yo
03:15:12 - Ayunema: beat you up in town. You're a nerd. Face it.
03:15:19 - Player: I'm extremely petty, what of it?
03:15:25 - Player: I'm a nerd but not a Sad Nerd
03:15:30 - Ayunema: I'm a happy nerd!
03:15:39 - Player: I don't think that's true
03:15:42 - Ayunema: I'm an admin on a server that doesn't have very many rules for the admins.
03:15:50 - Ayunema: My pastime is being feared and respected by players.
03:15:52 - Player: I think deep down you have a lot of pain and lonliness and resentment
03:16:10 - Ayunema: I wasn't aware escorting required a psychology degree.
03:16:21 - Player: I'm a hobbyist in psychology
03:16:32 - Ayunema: Sure I'm lonely, but I still wouldn't pay for sex.
03:17:03 - Ayunema: I pay for things that last.
03:17:17 - Ayunema: Actually, food doesn't last, but I kind of need that one.
03:17:39 - Player: Sex is like food, in addition to giving an immediate benefit, the benefits are long term too
03:17:43 - Ayunema: Censored
03:18:03 - Player: if I wasn't so cynical talking to you would really depress me
03:18:14 - Ayunema: Damn, really?
03:18:22 - Ayunema: I seem to get that a lot.
03:18:26 - Player: I possess a lot of empathy
03:18:27 - Ayunema: "You make me depressed, stop talking"
03:18:34 - Ayunema: I thought I kicked that habit.
03:18:37 - Player: it's almost like I'm figuring you out
03:18:46 - Ayunema: I'm a pretty open person.
03:18:56 - Player: or maybe you're just simple
03:19:07 - Ayunema: Quite possible.
03:19:16 - Player: Mmmmyes
03:20:44 - Ayunema: In any case, I don't even really know what we're talking about anymore. If you're still
03:20:51 - Ayunema: trying for something, or just having conversation now.
03:21:07 - Player: I'm not as mad about losing my gold anymore, I can get more.
03:21:21 - Ayunema: This is true.
03:21:22 - Player: I think you should give me some admin-made gold just out of kindness
03:21:35 - Ayunema: Well, that's one of the few rules I'm restricted by.
03:21:44 - Ayunema: I cannot just give gold to players.
03:21:46 - Player: I've given you some real human interaction, how valuable is that to you?
03:22:05 - Ayunema: Well, we have this mumble server, and I talk to players there constantly.
03:22:15 - Player: y'know I keep meaning to get that
03:22:17 - Ayunema: Like.. With voices. I'd say that's more human than this.
03:22:29 - Player: maybe I'll flirt with you there some time soon
03:22:36 - Ayunema: Maybe.
03:22:48 - Player: are there pubbies on that thing or just goons
03:22:51 - Ayunema: But I'd know it was empty flirting.
03:22:53 - Ayunema: Pubbies
03:22:57 - Ayunema: And some goons
03:23:19 - Ayunema: Though, technically, you could say I'm a pubby.
03:23:28 - Ayunema: I have an SA account, but I never go there.
03:23:39 - Player: how did you get the admin job?
03:23:49 - Ayunema: Divine intervention, mostly.
03:24:00 - Ayunema: Lucid asked me one day if I wanted to be an admin, I was like "Hmm, sure"
03:24:13 - Player: so you were friends before LS
03:24:16 - Ayunema: Nope
03:24:33 - Player: then how were you in a position to get an offer?
03:24:52 - Ayunema: I guess I just give off this odour of trustworthiness.
03:25:03 - Ayunema: Actually I think that's BO
03:25:41 - Ayunema: I can assure you that if I did something like accepting a bribe, Lucid would have no problem firi
03:25:44 - Ayunema: firing me.
03:25:53 - Player: you're assuming he'd find out
03:26:02 - Ayunema: You think a player wouldn't complain about getting banned?
03:26:12 - Player: it's your (mod) word against theirs
03:26:29 - Ayunema: So you're saying I'd then have to tell Lucid that I caught them x-raying or something.
03:26:32 - Player: if your word is a simple ban for cheating no mas
03:26:40 - Ayunema: Except I won't lie to lucid.
03:26:57 - Player: Well that's what I'd be bribing you to do in the first place, hypothetically
03:27:03 - Ayunema: I guess.
03:27:10 - Player: the whole point of a bribe is paying someone to do something they aren't gonna do anyway
03:27:23 - Ayunema: Right, kind of forgot about that.
03:28:08 - Ayunema: Well, doing something an admin technically shouldn't do is one thing.
03:28:36 - Ayunema: On a bad day, I might hide diamond near someone using x-ray so that they dig to it.
03:28:44 - Ayunema: Just so that they do it and I can get their banning over with.
03:28:51 - Ayunema: Instead of waiting for them to just do it naturally.
03:28:58 - Ayunema: But lying is something I really don't approve of.
03:29:02 - Player: do you serve justice or do you serve the law?
03:29:25 - Ayunema: If I say Justice, you'll say "It's not fair that I was killed"
03:29:29 - Ayunema: But I'll still say justice.
03:29:41 - Ayunema: Because getting killed is a common thing on this server.
03:29:48 - Player: Should the law be subverted to serve justice when need be?
03:30:19 - Ayunema: Are you saying that salsacat, who is the one I suspect you want me to ban, is being unjust?
03:30:47 - Player: No, it's got nothing to do with just or fair, I just want to evaluate you as an enforcer
03:30:52 - Ayunema: Oh
03:31:33 - Ayunema: I like to keep the law as it is, but if I can achieve justice by letting law take the back seat
03:31:35 - Ayunema: Then so be it.
03:32:01 - Player: the law serves as nothing but an instruction on how to execute justice
03:32:23 - Ayunema: Right, but there can be a grey area.
03:32:40 - Ayunema: Something justifiably illegal, and something illegally just. Both possible.
03:32:54 - Ayunema: Of course, some players believe they are justified in using x-ray after being robbed.
03:32:58 - Ayunema: They are wrong.
03:33:47 - Player: It just seems to me that the game isn't doing nearly enough to structure the so-call law system
03:34:17 - Player: why even have criminals if they can enter Order outright
03:34:37 - Ayunema: Well these are different forms of justice.
03:34:42 - Ayunema: Ingame justice is very weak.
03:34:50 - Ayunema: Server justice is what I am to uphold.
03:35:06 - Player: I think a base game mechanism is poorly implemented
03:35:19 - Ayunema: Which mechanism is that?
03:35:21 - Ayunema: Guards?
03:35:34 - Player: No the entire system of blue, grey and red status
03:35:35 - Ayunema: Or just karma in general?
03:35:42 - Player: it's effectively arbitrary
03:35:52 - Ayunema: It's based on Ultima Online.
03:36:02 - Ayunema: Which, yes, is arbitrary, but that's what Lucid was aiming for.
03:36:11 - Ayunema: Ultima Online, but in Minecraft.
03:36:23 - Player: God forbid we make it good
03:36:41 - Ayunema: Well, if you can kill someone without getting caught, all the power to you.
03:36:50 - Ayunema: If any player nearby happens to witness it, they can call guards if they want to.
03:37:02 - Ayunema: If they don't want to avenge you, that just means you aren't well liked enough.
03:37:05 - Player: you don't seem to believe that it's nigh-unpreventable to be ganked right in Order
03:37:23 - Ayunema: Do you have magery?
03:37:29 - Player: I have some.
03:37:34 - Ayunema: Enough to mark and recall?
03:37:49 - Player: the point is I died in ~1 second, there's no time to defend myself or type "guards"
03:37:57 - Ayunema: I'm getting to my point.
03:38:09 - Player: yes I TP'd into order and someone killed me immediately as I was walking to the bank
03:38:12 - Ayunema: If you have enough magery to mark and recall, bring a feather and 1 redstone powder to the bank.
03:38:22 - Player: in the 10 second walk from TP point to the bank I was killed
03:38:31 - Ayunema: Mark a rune behind the glass, near the banker
03:38:44 - Ayunema: Now they cannot hit you without walking past a guard.
03:38:48 - Ayunema: Which will get them killed.
03:39:03 - Player: that's a good idea but it's essentially a workaround for a problem you won't admit exists



Kind of gets boring near the end, but I didn't feel like removing that bit.(Removed some, but not all the boring, because this player's a bit of a whiner.)

In other news, any 404 on P610 now redirects to "I am your grandma". You're welcome.